doesn't mean anything- Alicia Keys

Used to dream of being a millionaire. without a care

but if i'm seeing my dreams and you aren't there

'cause it's over

that just wont be fair

darling,

rather be a poor women living on the street,

no food to eat,

cause i don't want no pie if i have to cry.

cause it's over

when you said goodbye!

all at once...

i had it all

but

it doenst mean anything

now that you're gone

from above seems i had it all

but it doesnt mean anything

since you're gone

now i see myself through different eyes,

it's no surprise!

being alone will make you realize

when it's over !

all in love is fair i shoulda been there, i shoulda been there, i shoulda shoulda

all at once..

i had it all

but

it doesnt mean anything

now that you're gone

from above seem i had it all

but it doesn't mean anything

since you're gone

i know i pushed you away

what can i do that would save our love

take these material things

they don't mean nothing

its you that i want

all at once....

i had it all

but it doesnt mean anything

now that you're gone

from above,

seems i had it all

but it doesnt mean anything

since you're gone

all at once...

i had it all

but it doesnt mean anything

now that you're gone

from above,

seems i had it all

but it doesn't mean anything

since you're gone

a letter to A

have been feeling down for the whole two weeks already.. yup, it's because of the issue that we are facing now.. i knew the reaction from your mom since the beginning. that's why i have been stopping u telling ur mom about us.. we are not from the same country.. and it's far away.. i have never feel the distance between us before. but now i do.. it's not because i don't have the fire red love anymore.. it' because of what you are doing now.. i know that you want to avoid your family from finding who you are with.. calling me to delete you from my facebook and deleting what you wrote about me on your blog and your mom threathening you that she'll cut off your mobile line if she found out that we contact each other on the phone.. it's pain enough for me.. and we have not been in contact frequently like last time.. this is suffering... really.. i rather face with your family like a man... but, i can't stop from whatever you doing.. it's your decision.. you want me to stop being so paranoid.. but it's really hard... i don't wanna lose you... you said that you don't own me.. but deep in my heart, you already own me.. i can dedicate my whole life to you..
for these past two weeks i coudn't do anything right.. my best friend in college do know that i'm facing this issue.. he do tried to make me feel better.. but i keep on pulling my face for the whole time.. sometimes faking some smile... and i think now he's tired of it.. my homeworks and assignments are pilling up... and dad wants me to go home today.. my family is moving to another house tommorow. i know i should be going back.. but i still awaiting for the chance to talk to you again.. i hope that you are not avoiding me now... if you do, i'll be the most miserable man... wish everything will go back to normal soon...i'm missing you like i have never before...

@.@

have not being updating my post for a while.. this post is to prove that i am still a blogger! LOL..

assignments are pilling up now.. and i still keep on facebook-ing.. the apps keep pulling me to it.. and i have been deep into someone too.. you know who you are.. not gonna mention your name here. hehe...

hmm.. i have a new goal recently. i have to quit smoking now. i don't know how i am gonna make it but i hope i can.. wish i have that motivation.. i know... i would think of piggy! haha..

alrite.. gonna make this post short and brief.. TAta!

back to my old ranch...lol

i'm back to my hometown now. it's d semester break again. my holiday started with some unpleasant incidents. i had to work at my cousin's shop. it's a prawn fishing center. the indonesian women he hired before was fired. so, i was the only one to work there. gosh, no one know how much phobia that i get.. i'm scared of prawns! i mean the living one.. and even the dead one.. it's slimmy skin...and d smell of it.. eww... but yesterday was the last day i worked for him. so glad that i had stop.. it's been a boring day staying at home. there's no internet at my home.. sucks.. so i look for some friends.. and we ended up with no where to go.. i explored the whole seremban already.. literally.. luckily there's restourants that provide free WIFI service here. i can spend hours there.. i'm missing my piggy so much.. aww... cant wait to c u again, piggy...

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sorry for not blogging so often..

it's exam again.. my last paper is on Monday..

it's been a great week.. probably the best week of my life..

no mood for merdeka.... gonna wear black tomoro... i'm sad for this country...

Malaysia... what colour are u?

It's August again.. the month where malaysian celebrates their triumph over colonization.
as my age are slowly coming closer to 20, i bare in mind that the only gift that left for me as a Malaysian from the last generation is the right to vote in the general election..

days by days, bad news heard from the mainstream and independent medias..
government wrong doings... corruptions... cronizations...
what they've done?
me as a part of the y-generation are easily biased..
what we see
what we heard
is what we believe..

when Malaysian wanted a new hope for them, the BN punish us for being ambitious..
try recall back the incidents that happened in just 1 year
first the hindraf..
then, RPK and the bloggers..
then, Perak crisis..
then, somebody got their naked picture circulated(selangor)..
then, somebody got detained for voicing out their disatisfactions..
then, MANY BODIES din't survive the detentions..
then, they shut the student's mouth by black mailing the students..

I wanted a good future for myself..
if i vote for BN, what do i get?

• easy business ? (bos, mau gi minum teh? i belanja) and become a big fat "businessmen"?
• my future tax money will be used as part of the fund for somebody's big big bungalow?
• move to malay populated township? (there's where all the taxpayer's money flowed to)
• put my children in Sekolah Kebangsaan? (easy to pass SPM, no need take chinese.. they set a low margin to help those NON-NON-bumiputra,got it? )
• a PM with a name that closest to the word "najis"

etc...

what if i vote for the opposition?

• i maybe one of the ppl that visit ISA (i'm writting this post anyway)
• i got block from entering the local universities
• more more ppl die ( u know why)
• not enough fund to repair a poth hole on the road..
• etc....

but things could be different if the opposition outnumbered...

i love this coutry.. not because of the government.. the government din't do anything for us.. even a PR in AUS could easily get a free medical service...in here, we're like shit for them to take out their time to take care of. I LOVE this country because of the PEOPLE.. and food (lol)..

Friends, voice it out loud the voice within u! We are not dummies! Negaraku, tanah air milik kita.. Rahmat bahagia, Tuhan-Ku kurniakan keadilan kita..

p/s: pls don't racist anymore ,guys...